Woo Hoo! I survived January! Yesssss. If only that wasn't the way I felt about it. January was...difficult, but alright. I feel really good about the goals I was able to acheive, and pretty frusterated about the ones I didn't.
First the good:
I'm still not smoking. In general I would say that not smoking has become normal for me, and that feels great. When I suddenly do want to smoke, I'm having an easier time pushing past it. I'm also still using my planner. It looks like the planner of an insane person (is that saying something?), and I see that as success. For now. Moreover, during the month of January I corrected two negative marks on my credit report, filed new W-4's with all three employers, read The Death of Bunny Munro, exercised (though not as much as I should have), and was generally successful in my goal to monitor my consumption. I even cooked! I made lasagna! without causing an apartment fire! Yessss!
And the not-so-good:
I exercised in January; really, I did. I just didn't exercise anywhere near three times a week. I find this very frustrating. I know that my level of physical activity is inversely related to my stress level. I know that when I get stressed, I sit down. The problem, it seems, is not sitting down. I also found out I somehow filled out my W-4's wrong, which I didn't even know was possible. So now I owe the IRS over $1000, and they're fining me for having to pay so much in taxes. What? Really? There's a fine for paying taxes? I have a plan, I've corrected my mistakes (I think) and I will get a payment plan with the IRS. Still, it puts me behind on my goal for cleaning up my finances, and honestly, how can I be fiscally responsible if I can't even pay my taxes correctly? I've never had a problem with my taxes before, but it really hurts. Finally, I'm struggling with The Diamond Age and I don't think I managed to write a blog a week for January. Heck, I haven't even written a blog a week so far for February!
At the end (or a week after the end) of the month, it seems like a wash. Edmund is wildly supportive, but after such a rough start it seems like a long way to the end of the year. I'm not doing great for February (I haven't exercised near enough), but I'm trying. I'm not giving up; with some luck (in the form of reduced stress and increased sleep) I'll be able to turn this month around.
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